Long ago before I became a Christian, I admit, I've been so lost and so ignorant of this world. Ignorant in such a way that I was blinded by the truth. I knew and I heared things about what is right and wrong but never have the wisdom to know the differences betwen holiness and sin. I was blinded yes I was, doing things I think I know but is pretty much a sin. As the quotation states, " ignorance of the law excuses no one".
    Because of the greatness of God's mercy, He used my cousin to be the vessel of His love. I was invited in a youth service. That night changed my world upside down.  During that night, I surrendered my whole life to Jesus.
    God's love never fails. He showed me that He is strength in the times that I was down and so stressed. Yes Jesus became my strength and in my loneliness He showed me that He is more than enough.
     For a long time I slowly letting go of my fleshy urges that is the nature of the human flesh. I forgot what it desire being so busy in serving Christ. But then again, Satan never quits to became the destroyer and the deceiver of mankind.
    When the days that I felt so perfect was the day that for the very first time I finally said "Yes" to a man to be my boyfriend. I was so happy but then again, temptations came.
    I was addicted to my boyfriend and I slowly disobeying God's command. I felt like I've been piercing and it really hurts to break God's heart because of the sin. I repented all day trying to ask for God's forgiveness. If someone will ask me how is my spiritual life, I will say "struggling".
     It's hard. Temptations were so hard to overcome. But the battle is not just mine but God also. He is with me to fight. I don't wanna lose what I've been  striving for and that is holiness and obedience to God. I love Jesus more than my boyfriend. He us every air that I breath. He is everything to me. No one can ever satisfy my longing heart but only Him.
       Everyday is a battle between God and evil. Strive to feed our spirit more that our flesh. When you feed the spirit it becomes strong and will win over the weakening flesh. So strive to feed the spirit. Read the bible. Pray, worship and repent! God is coming soon and we are His awaited bride. Oh Lord have mercy on Your people. Make us holy abd righteous in your sight. Make us a woman or man of action not just words to be able to stand in your truth and live it.

Glory and honor belongs to Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.